living within

Were the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't u tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...

~Another Sad moment~

Today is just like the same as last tuesday. One gone, now another. Its just too fast. I did not realized that she was leaving so soon. I always thought that it was still far away. Then on Fri after i came back from my Cousins B'day, I found out. Immediately I tried to find some day before tuesday that i can spend some time with her. OH NO!!! SAD SAD SAD ;( Don't have. Felt so bad. This whole year have not really gone out with her for long long.

She has really been very good and kind and funny and thoughtful and caring and silly and crazy=P and loving and cute. Oh how i would miss the times we had together last year where we went shopping together. I still remember going into shops and trying on clothes then staring at the mirror and feeling satisfied for just that few minutes before puuting back onto the shelf as the price was like WOW!!! HAHA!!! Will really miss Shopping with YOU^^ Will really miss eating all those small little food from those small shops. Will miss Watching lotsa movies with you.

Oh i love You so much. I wish i could have spent more time with ya. Wish you a safe Journey to Hawaii. Hope everything will be smooth for you there. Hope you won't get into any trouble. Haha. Trouble meaning Michael being angry at you if you 4get him. HAHA JOKING=) OH i LOVE YOU so much!!! have nvr come round saying that to you. But I'm going to say it here. I LOVE YOU SISTA!^^ You will always have a special place in my heart. I WILL MISS YOU LOTS LOTS;) oh I'm going to cry. sob sob sob. I miss you already;) MUACKS^^

Feelings~

I'm so confused... Really don't know what decision to make.
Part of me wants to let go. Part of me just can't bear to do it. Feelings are just so strong. I need you JT. I love you. I'm afraid, i'm scared. Living in a world of thoughts.
Someone pls help me~

Is it simple?

Why does it have to be this way? Why can't life be simple? I really want it that way... But i'm not certain of any progression. Haiz... Okies, going back to the normal. Hope it won't be boring:( Maybe a change will help X) Quite certain of it though, going to live on with hope...